When someone tells you they don't care what people think they are lying. Lying to you and lying to themselves. No matter how many times we lie to our selves, the lie never transforms into the truth. Whether the truth is ugly or beautiful it's always who it says it is. It never deceives. It never bends for anyone or anything. That's why I love and hate the truth. It's admirable but hurtful. Lies try to be admirable but in the end they are always just hurtful. So why lie to your self? Why purposely hurt your self. You know you hate sushi so why lie and say you love it? You know you love rap music, but yet again lies lies lies because Micheal likes rock. These simple lies may not hurt them but they hurt you. Inch by inch they chip away who you are. Inch by inch you start acting more like Sarah than yourself. Inch by inch you hate every song on your ipod. Suddenly, you are miles from who you used to be. You were trying to fit in. You were just trying to be admirable. That's the thing about lies; no matter how often you say them, no matter how great your intentions are, they are never admirable. They just hurt.
You never get a first impression twice. You never get to live December, 31, 2013 again. So why lie. Deep down we ALL care. We all care what the attractive opposite sex think. We all care what the rad girl thinks of us. Sadly we don't care enough about how we think about our selves. No matter how annoying or how ugly I am, I am me. "Gemma". I never bend for anyone or anything. I never deceive someone into liking me. We try to spare peoples feelings by telling them lies when they really just want the truth. The truth is I know you all are judging me when you are reading this. Half of you probably haven't even gotten this far. I know some of you are going to hate this. And after a lot of growing up, I am okay with that. So hello I am Gemma Janes. I didn't take this class to earn my class mates respect by writing bull crap they will like. I didn't take this class because I wanted to learn how to be a hipster. I took this class because my heart likes to be heard in the form of words. If you don't want to listen that's okay there are 99 other blogs. I am done lying to myself. It's time my heart tells the truth. So welcome to my blog if you don't like blood, viewer discretion is advised.
